And, if you just don't want to read it through the spoiler, here's the link. You'd probably be better off that way xD
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4694866/1/But_I_Die_Without_You
Also, it's probably too long to post >_> So I'll put it into two posts.
Edit: Out of spoiler. Words are very small >_>
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Disclaimer : I do not own Naruto or anything related to The Raw Shark Texts by Steven Hall. If you read the book, you’ll see it in the first line.
Imporatant Notes : This takes place in 1989, during the AIDS epidemic. Yes, I thought of RENT while I was writing this, and was listening to the music. Also, some of the characters are bilingual, meaning they speak two languages fluently. If you are also fluent with any of the languages that come up, if I make a mistake, please tell me! I'll fix it right away. I'm depending on Google translate, which doesn't work the best. Haha. If you're confused about anything, just post a review or send me a private message!
Warnings : Contains frequent cursing by Hidan, amnesia-like diseases, laughing suns, etc etc.
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ITACHI POV
My eyes snapped open. I had stopped breathing.
Black spots hovered above my eyes as I gasped in quick, dry breaths. The dusty heaves – my crazed, dusty heaves – echoed lightly in what seemed like an empty room. My heartbeat thudded in my chest in a state of panic. I could feel the warmth of what felt like tears on my cheeks, but my vision was so blurred already I really could not tell.
‘Calm down, calm down…’ I thought softly, a sad, futile attempt to calm my jumping nerves.
I struggled up on my elbows, which shook under the sudden move. My joints made small pops, as if not being moved is so so so long. I tried to take in steady breaths, but each inhale and exhale was a shuddering heave.
I finally pushed myself onto my knees, slowly. I closed my eyes as I shifted to the new angle, and I could feel the sharp, static feeling behind them. I took in another shuddery breath and gently opened my eyes. The spots had not disappeared, but the static buzzed away quietly.
My shaking was also reduced to a soft tremble. I supposed that was a plus?
I brought the heels of my palms to my eyes. I had not noticed I had broken out into a cold sweat until then.
Rubbing away what were actually panicked tears upon waking up, I breathed in a steady, un-dusty, normal breath.
‘Just relax. You’re okay. I’m okay.’
As my sticky palms left my eyes, I squinted at the brightness of the room. A window was just conveniently about fifteen feet in front of me. Bright yellows and hints of soft oranges peered through it, as if looking at my face, mocking me and my pitiful state.
”Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha…”
I shook my head warily and looked below the window, away from the mocking bright orb. Below the window was a desk. My desk? I didn’t know. It didn’t look familiar. I wasn’t exactly sure. I twisted my head slightly to the right. A bed, with dim grey sheets in a horrid disarray, as if someone had, quite literally, fallen and stumbled out of bed. Was it me? Again, the fact was unknown to me. Between the bed and the desk, a slim wooden cabinet held a collection of books inside, which was only seen because the door of said cabinet was wide open, untouched by the caretaker. Was I the caretaker? On top of the cabinet was a digital clock, reading a bright red 16:58(1).
As I placed my hands firmly on the floor in front of me, I slowly pushed myself onto my feet. My ankles snapped and popped at the sudden movement, suddenly being moved again. As I wobbled, my feet’s clumsiness – my clumsiness – made me back up a few steps in want for balance, and made me bump into something solid. Something that couldn’t have been there before, for I had just been lying on the ground, hacking my own breath out right there.
The solid object then spoke. “Itachi, you alright?”
I thought for a moment. ‘Itachi. Itachi. That sounds…familiar.’ I did not respond to the voice behind me.
Suddenly, a weight that was planted on my left shoulder made me jump. A startled grunt left my throat. The weight lifted slightly.
“Sorry, Itachi. Didn’t mean to startle you,” the voice apologized, sounding confused for a reason unbeknownst to me. “But, are you alright?”
I wondered. “Who…” I cleared my throat. “Who is…Itachi?”
Again, the weight lifted slightly. “You. Itachi, you’re you. Really, are you feeling okay?”
‘Me…?’
“Who are you?” I questioned. I avoided the question to me unintentionally.
There was a pause. The weight on my shoulder left completely, and I swore I could feel the left side of my body lurch up, as if I had been slouching to the one side. “…” Another pause. There was the thudding of slow footsteps behind me as the object (which I now expected to be human) turned and walked to what I guessed was a doorway. Then, the object’s – human’s – gruff and deep voice loudly began calling names. Names that were completely new to me.
“Kakuzu! Speed dial three!” he called first. A deep yet still slightly muffled response was given back. “Tobi, Deidara, bring Zetsu in.” A very clear (and quite annoying) “Yes, Kisame-san! Tobi is a good boy!” and a whack followed by threatening grunts was heard, which then had an annoying wailing follow. “Sasori and Hidan, come up.” There was no verbal response to that.
A pair of loud but not exactly heavy feet echoed off the walls, making the place sound empty. A pair of softer feet came behind the louder, slow and almost expressing the lack of concern.
I noticed I had not turned away from the window. The sun smiled at me tauntingly.
“Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha…”
As I turned, a loud thud echoed, with a string of curses following. A monotonous “Idiot” just barely echoed, and in return, I heard glass break and wood, most likely a small table, bang against the wall.
If there really was furniture…Then there was no way their echoes could be so clear. But…what was the other choice?
Without much hesitation (still, though, maybe a second or two interval), I tapped the man’s shoulder, which I noticed was very broad.
Actually, now that I tapped his shoulder and he turned to me with a questioning noise, I noticed a lot of things about this guy. First of all, he was huge. Not only in height, whereas he must have been at least a half foot taller than me, but he was quite muscular, too. Second, his hair. His hair was a tie between a dark and light blue, but still not settling as just ‘blue’. It spiked at the ends and very little of the cerulean locks intruded his face. That was the third thing. His face, though calm with a tinge of concern, was a pale, pale blue, along with the rest of his skin, and had marks along his upper-cheek bones that looked as if they were…gills? Really, if the guy didn’t talk, I would have thought he was a shark.
He turned his head around slightly to face me. As I looked up at him, words caught in my throat. Suddenly, I couldn’t remember what I was going to ask.
I could hear the sun laughing again. “Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha…”
I turned around completely, to face the window. The desk. The cabinet. The bed. I placed my hands in front of my face, close. I twisted them around slowly.
Who am I?
I suddenly got that stabbing, prickling fear. The one you get when you know you’ve done something terrible. The one you get when you’re suddenly horribly lost, even though your guide was right there a moment ago.
That stabbing, prickling feeling.
My eyes darted to the window again, ripping away my hands away from sight. The sun was lurching lower and lower, and the sky began to turn into a mirage of colors. However, the sun bore into my eyes. Laughing at me. Taunting me.
“You’re such a fool…Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha…”
I suddenly lunged at the window, in desperation to get to the sun, attack it. The desk hit my thighs sharply, and any of its contents shook noticeably.
I stopped clawing at the window. And I looked down at the desk. I sucked in a deep breath. And let it go quickly.
I hadn’t noticed the three staring figures behind me, standing slightly in the doorframe. My back to them, I must have only looked like a trembling drug addict or something. But, it wasn’t the case. In all truth, I can’t even remember if I did drugs at all.
I picked up the folded over brown leather in my two hands. Really, I didn’t know why I was shaking so much. Maybe it was a craving for something…
I fought the urge to smack my own forehead. ‘Idiot…Identity. Identity. That’s what the hell I’m looking for.’
I opened the fold-over wallet and flipped through it. Top row, a few bucks in cash, with some receipts and change lying around it. Next few rows, library cards collecting up from obviously years before now, unless my handwriting is that spaced out and big and so childlike now. A few more cards, ranging from Membership Cards to coupons, and then, in the whole mess of it, there it is. A driver’s license.
There might as well have been lights shimmering around it and a chorus of angels singing.
I quickly pulled it out and dropped the wallet back on the desk, which made a stack of papers crumple. I did not care right now about what those papers were, nor would I until I got this whole thing straightened out.
I held the card to my face and stared at the picture. My eyes narrowed. I was trying to reflect what I looked like in the photo.
My eyes were in a locked glare at the camera, though showed no hate through their red orbs. Rather, it looked like boredom. Or disinterest. Whatever it was, the glare was set on just getting out of there. My hair was pulled back neatly into a low ponytail, and two ebony fringes lined part of my face perfectly. There wasn’t any frizz, no having to tuck any stray hair behind the ear, nothing.
Why am I paying so much attention to my hair.
I focused my attention on the left of the license. My name was the first thing I saw.
Itachi Uchiha.
I blinked. I was almost tempted to turn back around to the blue man. 'So my name is Itachi.’
Below it, my address. Below that, my town and country. Below that, gender (M) Next to that, hair color (BLK). Eye color (RED/BLK). I had no clue what that was supposed to mean. Black and red were colors not even close to each other. Below gender, my height (5-08). Below hair color, weight (124), and then next to that is my birth date. June 9th, 1970.
I put the card back down. I breathed in deeply and then looked out of the window. The sun was gone. The mirage of color was slowly being taken over by the pre-night dark blue sky.
“Ahh, fuck it! Itachi, what happened to you, damnit – DAMN IT KISAME!” I turned on my heel to look at the loudmouth behind me.
The ‘loudmouth’ was attacking the blue man, who I now assumed was this ‘Kisame’ person. The ‘loudmouth’ had slicked back silver hair (which looked like there was way too much hair gel in), pale purple wide eyes, and pale white skin.
He noticed me looking at him. “Tch. Fucking asshole,” he muttered to Kisame. I raised my eyebrow.
Kisame disregarded the comment and looked over to me. “Itachi.” His voice was soft, yet almost dead serious. I saw the redhead roll his eyes, as if saying “Get to the point.”
As a matter of fact, he did. The red head looked at me with bored eyes. “Kisame, you can tell he’s not remembering anything. And he obviously remembers zilch about his personality, running into a desk like he did. What, was he trying to attack the window?” It almost sounded as if he forgot I was there, listening to him.
‘My personality…?’ The driver’s license showed nothing about my personality. No good piece of plastic crap…
The redhead continued. “At any rate, he’s not going to remember anything, especially if he doesn’t remember himself. So he doesn’t remember why he’s here, who we are, who is little brother is—“
“Sasuke.” My voice carried to the three standing there. They stared at me incredulously. I would have stared at myself like that, too. The name felt sort of right in my mouth, but…it sounded foreign, still. ‘Sasuke.’ It seemed to be the only thing I remembered. “Sasuke,” I repeated again.
“Okay, well Sherlock Shit remembers something…” the loudmouth interjected. I sent a small glare at him.
“Hidan, shut up for once, would you?” Kisame breathed pleadingly. ‘Hidan’ sent a side glare at him.
“Fuck off,” Hidan told him. Kisame then sent a glare at him, but did not further the fight.
I stepped toward the three of them just as another pair of footsteps echoed off the walls.
‘Echoes…That was my question.’
“Er, uh—“ I stopped talking as all attention was sent to me again. “Do any of you hear…echoing?” I asked timidly, suddenly nervous for some reason. Hidan’s eyes narrowed at me, probably confused at my nervousness which probably never showed up in the…previous me.
As the new person appeared behind the other three, Kisame and Sasori were also looking at me strangely.
I felt so small under their confused eyes. So weak and stupid. I just wished I could remember. Remember something other than the name Sasuke, who was apparently my younger brother. Something.
Kisame then started walking towards me. As soon as he took the last step toward me, I felt a small pang in my empty memory. Something that tried to force its way back up front so I could see. But, it stayed cluttered in the back, with the rest of my memories. Damn it.
Kisame then placed a hand on my forehead, his one eyebrow raised. I looked up, my eyes crossing slightly, to see a pale blue blur. I blinked once, twice. Then, it retreated. He put his fists on his waist and still looked at me with that raised brow. “Maybe if you rest. Then maybe you’ll remember.”
I gave him the incredulous look he gave me before. “Maybe when pigs fly.”
Hidan snorted. “Damn, you act like a fucking kid, seriously.” The man behind him smacked him in the back of the head. “What the fuck, Kakuzu?!”
“Don’t be an idiot,” the man, ‘Kakuzu’, scolded. Hidan gave a childish glare to him. Kakuzu stared back, boredom taking over the glaze in his neon green eyes.
I sighed tiredly. These people were very unreasonable.
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