Cross country 09' *dead spirit or lost?*

man i found out some bad news for our cross country...which totally
kills my running spirit...and i think the rest of the hope for the
girls on my team. *rantish moment*ok soo my bff maria, her schedule got rly fucked
up this yr...she was suppose to get AP Gov & cross country but
didn't and she tried changing it...but stupid skool only has one AP Gov
class and its 6th per.*all sports are 6th per*and she said that she rly
wanted Mrs.Nicoletti & the class. So she's just deciding to not do
XC...D: *was feeling bummed cuz she's my running buddy...we were
competition against each other & always pushed each other during
the races*. Then i found out at lunch today after Maria told me that
she is officially not doing XC, i found out that 2 of our other
senior's Anneji & Sandra are quitting too...cuz they want to take
AP gov. I just feel like ughh...there goes our chance at beating
Gayfair in our senior year...But in a way i know that they're doing
this cuz its for their education & there's just things that are
just more important than sports. So i feel like our whole senior yr was
pretty much killed for XC...and i was looking forward to slaughtering
Gayfair again. But there's like no chance at that happening now. My
captain & me are the only ones who are taking Gov and my other
friend jessica did hers in the summer. So that only 3 ppl for the
seniors on the girls team. The rest is a group of juniors &
sophomores & few freshmeat.*those are JV team* just kinda felt like
wow that was just a waste of a summer of running in a way...T____T you
get me? There's like no possible way of getting any points with 3 varsity runners on the the team...just might as well forfeit for the Varsity girls season. But i have high hopes that the boys varsity can redeem themselves from a horrible defeat last yr & the JV boys have great chance of winning this season and definitely good hopes for the JV girls.

But its like wow all the training that we did this summer and all just seemed like a waste...or something idk how to rly put in a way.
I was looking forward to this season sooo much...just feels like that has all faded away after hearing the news at lunch. i was very shocked.
We only have 6 varsity runners for the moment and you need 7 for a full varsity team.
But now its down to 3 girls, you need 5 girls to get actual points for the team*I'm the 5th runner*....i don't know what we're going to do this season. But one things for sure...i know sadly we're not going to go to CIF Prelims*which is where the best 3 skools in the league during their season go & race on the toughest course in Cali*

I really feel like i've lost my running spirit...the 3 of us girls didn't even run today..cuz we just didn't feel like it.
Feel like it just broke our tight nit family of Varsity girls.

I don't if i feel lost in my "running spirit" now or shattered. But i feel lost in words now in some way...
I can't imagine what our 2 coaches will think when they hear of this shocking news..and our season starts next week i think.