Rant about bad things happening to you in RL

knssquad wrote:Okay, lemme try

One day. One day is all the time I get to see my mother. I haven't seen her since August. Why one day? Because the rest of the vacation time, she is taking the only car with insurance with her to California. We don't have much, we are running out of stuff and money. My stepfather is trying his best to take care of me. But his license was suspended because he ran out of money for child support! So we have no way to go anywhere, and we are relying on others for what we need. And if that wasn't enough, he's sick... he might die. And we can't drive to the doctor, let alone afford it. I'm the only one here to take care of him. My dog is running out of food, and so are we. Goddamn, and to think, my mother went to California to get more money for us, and we are lower than ever...

My future might be ruined. I have no college funds. All the other property we owned was foreclosed on. We live so far from everything, I can't just walk to the grocery store. T.T

My school is 30 min away, and somebody has to offer to drive us. And she's only back for one day! She's a nurse! She needs to stay here and help my stepfather, so he doesn't die. But she won't, because she is afraid of losing her job... we are so afraid. And my stepfather, I've had him for as long as I can remember. My own father died when I was little. I don't want to lose another father. My mother is in her fifties, she can't work much longer. So how will I pay for college? How will I get to school? How?

-hugs Danny- I'm sorry D:
I'll be sure to keep you in my prayers.

Quad, I wish I knew your real age, but I don't think you have to worry about College yet.

*Hugs Danny*

Aww... I wish I could help you.

I feel bad about my problems now, after seeing danny's issue. Mine are just drama-filled crap. So I will spoiler it.

Spoiler:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

So I'm pretty much gonna fail my computers class. Ugh. The stupid computer at school didn't save my 300 POINT PROJECT. I found out that my grade's gonna turn into a 53%, which equals death. I absolutely cannot fail this. I e-mailed my teacher to see if I can redo the project here and send it back to him. OMG. You guys, I'm in super panic mode. idk what to do. I'm praying that he'll send me the template for it. I'm scared as hell. Huge problem is I don't have Adobe Illustrator. I think they have a trial on the website. So that's fine. But I'm hoping I can do this. Bleh.

Ouch. Good luck, Spyke. ._.

Damn >__>;

I have a DBQ due tomorrow, and I don't have my docs and shit.
Maybe I can pass out in lunch and go home before History...

*revive because I feel like it*

Okay. Rant about mom startinggg...Now:

Bitchhhhh. Bitcho-bitchy-mc-bitchpants. I dunno what the hell that means but, hell, this is me talking. Anyway, ever since the new year started, she's been acting up on me, which, in turn, makes me act up on her. And it seems like the first time I'm in pain this year, she could give a rat's ass about me going to see a doctor. Instead of being worried, she's joking about it and being that bitch I mentioned before.
I dunno. Maybe I'm just acting up or something.
But, this is what I've been thinking; I didn't pull a muscle in my arm, that's for certain. And even though she knows that, she won't listen to any of the other problems that might be wrong with it. It's probably not broken, because I'd be screaming or something, but if it's not a pulled muscle, then what is it? She can't feel the pain in my arm, so she doesn't know. And as far as I know she doesn't have X-ray vision either. It's like, woman! Get your fact straight for crying out loud.
-sigh-
I dunno. And she turned on the parental controls so they turn me off at 9. 9. What the flying flip. And I'm beginning to wonder how long she's going to go on with it, too. She can't seriously believe this will change anything at all, other than make me a complete and total annoying bitch to her. That's the only outcome I see of that.
Mih, I dunno. She's just being sort of annoying to me right now. I could easily turn the controls off since I know the password, and I have a plan of staying up later, but still, I don't understand what outcome she's trying to get out of any of this.
Haha, I probably sound like a child. But no one has to read this. It's just a little rant. It's not like you can hear me yelling at her and us get into our fights. Which, by the way, have been occuring more and more. I think she just wants to keep me from growing up, which she obviously can't, or she just feels like annoying the shit out of me. Who knows.
Eh, I guess that's it. I feel like screaming at her for whatever reason of the two, but I won't. Bah.

Drat! I spent my two dollar bill on a coke!

So, a few days ago my great gram was rushed to the hospital - she couldn't breathe.
As it turns out, she has pneumonia. An 84 year old woman with pneumonia is not good. That is the least of her problems, though. She has some sort of lung fibrosis, (the word starts with 'i' But I can't think of it right now.) and has been on oxygen for almost a year. What it does is, as you get older, it wears out the elasticity of your lung so that they eventually stop working. Her lungs aren't working at all anymore. She's on machines that are doing her breathing for her. Her kidneys have been bad for a while now, they've been operating at about 35%. I talked to the doctor today, and now they are working at 5%. She is refusing dialysis because she has heard that it's painful. The doctor said it probably wouldn't be a good idea anyway. She is in so much pain, and she doesn't want to suffer anymore. She is far too old and too sick for a transplant. She has congestive heart failure. Her heart is slowing down, it's getting stiff. She couldn't get up by herself today, she is afraid of falling.
This woman has been in my life since I can remember. She's one of the most awesome people around, even though she's old and has alzheimers, she's so fun and so fiesty.
Things aren't looking good.
I wish there was something more I could do for my grandmother. She is losing her mother shortly after she lost her brother. He died of cancer June 11 this year - shortly after my birthday, actually...
I wish there was something I could do.

Aw, I'll pray for you, SSS!

Thank you, Q.

Me too!!! :DDD
I will pray for you, too. ^_______________________^

Thanks, NBF.

Anytime :D

My old computer compooted.

Had to get a new one.

I lost my pictures of people, my avatars, everything.

All back to 0

Sweet!

ouch... >.< sounds tough

The new computer is fast, though.

So, win some lose some.

sure... but pictures and stuff...

Yep! And all my avatar making stuff ^_^

Thats sad....

No big deal!

^^

Hm, I actually like the new computer. Speed.

*be aware, i get agressive* xD

Urgh, dirty slag. She's such a bad liar! Any one can see through her, she thinks just by telling me she has pictures of her and MY friends thinks it makes me jealous, fuck her. I'll kill her. Who does she think she is? Bloody dwarf can't even make herself come across nice, on the friggin internet. Writing shit about me on your profile doesn't scare me, tell it to me face, you whore! I swear i'll get her in school, she doesn't deserve the 4"7 body she's cursed with. Thinking she's better than me, showing off in her pictures, pictures don't hide the fact that your jealous! Fucking whore, starving yourself isn't going to make you pretty, i hope you die because of it!!


*sighs* All better ^_^

Wow, I don't even know her and she pisses me off. >_>